Sunday, May 30, 2010

[Empty Pages..]little girl..

        ~Little Girl~
Strong and Empowered she cries to her self,
if your so legit, why do you feel so left out..
people all treat you the EXACT same.
put you down and make you feel ashamed,
ashamed of who you truly are, so ill tell you this..
please little girl protect your heart...
you know who you are,
what you need
what you stand for
ill say this to you now.. don't let others ruin you anymore,
 go with you, me, who i am  & believe it with all
it'll open the door to a new and fresh start,
YOU are incredibly amazing
and everyone knows it, so take it run free, and don't look back for you  may show it.
she may show the people how incredible she really is.
they might find out what she is capable of
and everyone else is inferior when it comes right down to it,
they would be jealous,
for they know they can never measure up,
to the wonderful girl
the one
has become.

{I wrote this may 5th 2010 i was crying and hurt, for some nerdy reason its inspiring to me to write poetry to express how I'm feeling, tell me what you think or your insight on it.}

Friday, May 28, 2010

~Horoscope~ headache

This is my favorite horoscope.
power through an awkward moment today with confidence and enthusiasm, dont apologize for who you are, and be confident in your currently secure state of mind and youll no doubt ace any mental or emmotional test today, and will inevitably find satisfaction in all social situations,

Senior lock in ,,
crazzy night, watched a movie, [that wasnt scary]. started a pellow fight that was short lived (& and yes i did mean pellow),  played volley ball , finally,, i definatley need some help hahah, and passed out, literally, unconscious, now i have a headache and absolutely zero appetite,, dont really know why probably since i pulled a complete all-nighter, from 7 yesterday morning till just now getting ready to sleep, i slept on my teachers snuggie on her floor behind her desk for 2 and a half hours today too, fun week, so tired i cant even see straight.
Im officially Alumni of rockwell,  had to ask like 8 times what that means ,, all in all im graduated, older, and so far the biggest success of my life happend yesterday, Graduation, [except still being alive, thats a big accomplishment too.]

Wednesday, May 26, 2010


Traumatized here,, graduation is tomorrow !! so scary :/ i don't want to leave everyone and everything i know.

" when one door closes, another one opens; but we so often look so long & regretfully at the closed door, that we do not see the one that has opened for us."

Ill deal and live i mean growing up isn't the worst thing in the world right.. after all its not bad at all its just different. I have wanted to move out for so long,,  i just never thought it would happen so fast..

I learned from someone i really love and respect that, you don't cry,, no matter what..& always look at the bright side of things, you can enjoy life no matter where it takes you or where you take it , and its no use looking at all the negative,,
so i honestly think we should just be happy, after all you only live once, so i say love deeply, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, don't EVER take for granted your time or what you have, be a good person because that's all that matters in the end, fifty years from now it wont matter who you hated what you wore, or weather you got prom queen or not, all that matters is YOU, your character, who you have become and what YOU did for others, i want to be the person that when i die there is so many people at my funeral they wont all fit in one building, where no one ever has anything bad to say about me and every person i ever came in contact with can say ,  " she changed my life, for the better" that's the person I'm striving so hard to be. service project tonight [: I'm working on it!  

with love, Taylor,  
 have a wonderful Wednesday..

Monday, May 24, 2010

[Empty Pages..] NeRvEs...

What are
[nerves] exactly?
why is it i get so [nervous] around people i look up too..
Im not a [nervous] or shy person,
I guess if i really respect someone
 & want to be like them they make me [ nervous]..
what makes us that way?
 I dont understand,,

[Empty Pages..] Taylor Ashley.

I wrote a journal kind of like a book,, of me,, and what i think about ,, some of the stuff that goes on in my head. The way i feel about certain things or even certain people, i dont know, this stuff just comes to my mind. so anything with the title, [Empty Pages..] is something from that journal, that im posting on here.. hope you like it.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Quote for today~

I believe
everything happens for a reason.
people change so you can learn how to let go,
 things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right.
You believe lies so eventually you learn to trust no one but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart,
 so that better things can fall

Quote for today~

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal, Nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude,

I watched, extraordinary measures tonight, i was so cute, this quote basically sums it up what a coincidence, [:

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Teach me, Guide me, Teachers Needed

I  need teachers this summer, not the typical ones though.
 I need one to teach me how to cook,
One to help me find a new way to cheat my way through math and science,
 and one too teach me how to play volley ball ,, since thats all college kids do nowadays [:
 hah anyone up for it ?

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Is anyone else getting the same anxiety im getting for school to be over ? senioritus , dont really know what it is but i think it has something to do with what im feeling,, college is so stressful to think about , i dont think im ready for it, dance is over ,, so sad,, high school is over,, mixed feelings, seriously sad for all the people im leaving behind,, sister is my best freind ,, dont wanna leave her, teachers are amazing,, not so sad about leaving the drama,, going to miss meranda and breanna ,, drake, drill team ,, all of it ! one week sorta left,, need some stress relivers!!
Drill team , love these girls
Mearanda, Candice, Me being nerdaay,
Maddie [: