100th post!

---OK, so i have been thinking about this post for a while, its supposed to be something special or something BEING POST 100.. but i really just couldn't decide what it should be about. so this is what i finally came up with. ---

My life, a whole 19 years 6 months and 7 days,

i am living, just as me, I'm breathing, I'm walking, I'm laughing, I'm running, I'm hurting, I'm loving, I'm smiling, I'm crying, I'm learning, I'm growing, but mostly.. I'm living.

my life is incredible, I'm not dying, I'm not crippled, i have all my senses, i have struggles, but everyone does, and in the whole scheme of things, everything is just not that bad when you look at the bigger picture,

in fact everything is pretty incredible.

 life is complicated.. its hard to get,

so I'm trying to understand the things i can.

 I'm accepting the things i cant,

 I'm changing what needs to be changed,

 and lm letting go the things that i have no control over.

 im just trying to be happy, and that is what i want for the whole entire world, is just to feel happiness radiating through their inards, everyone deserves happiness.

i love being me, i love my soul, i love feeling the way i feel, good and bad.

im embracing my flaws and my imperfections, i love my talents and accomplishments. and

even though things can be sticky.. instead of trying to clean the mess up right away.. i sort of want to play in it first!

The things that make me happy Today

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LAUGHTER

SUNSHINE

FAMILY

DREAMS

KISSES

SMILES

(REAL) HUGS

THAILAND

FRIENDS
ENDLESS OPPORTUNITIES

CRYING

JUMPING

DANCING

RAIN
CHURCH

SPORTS BRAS

HERBAL TEA

LONG TALKS

REALIZATION

HOT AIR BALLOONS

COLORS

THE ODYSSEY

SPRING TIME

LIVING YOUNG, WILD AND FREE

loving This Song and This One too.

Feeling life coming at me. full force. I love it!

if anyone has any questions

or suggestions

 for my next and upcoming post

 let me know!

Its gotta be a good life...

Do a little something to make you feel happy

...

(this week i haven't been feeling... lets just say my typical optimistic self.)

knowing this i still did nothing to change my views, then i came across This post on This wonderful blog, and realized, life is good, nothings horrible, actually a lot of good things are happening so why be sour? why be down? just enjoy this time i have been given.

so... here's the small necessities that are making my life a good life:

Good books

cute boys

Laughing so hard i cant breathe

Grandparents

Parents

The Lion King

Compliments from strangers

Elephants

The colour Sea Foam Green

Music

The Carpenters

Prayers

&

words of Encouragement

What are the small

worth while necessities

 in your life?

wake up:

This morning i wake up to: quiet, everything is quiet,

 the cars speeding back and forth on the freeway,

but its not noise, its soothing.

it lets me know even though I'm all alone,

right now.

there are still people, beautiful people out there.

while I'm in here.

I wake up to shadows, not sunshine. like i usually do. 

its early but not too early,

as i peer out my window its raining,

 i instantly have an overwhelming feeling of peace and comfort,

i expand my lungs and fill them with thousands of molecules of pure damp air,

it gently flows rain and oxygen,  through my window,

i feel alive again when i breathe, relax, body, just breathe.

its so beautiful and cleansing, when my life starts to drag, it just needs to rain, and its completely renewed. why is it the rain makes me feel this way,

 I'm not completely sure, but it does,

and today will be

an incredible day!

[out my window]

Euphoria!

ME, having  best week ever ! i feel euphoric and happy i just never stop smiling, and believe it or not i had a complete emotional break down on Tuesday ! seehow fast time turns? anyways.

My reasoning is A.) I'm just happy !

B.) i got to hang out with Nat Friday night and freakin love her so much, biggest sweet heart on the face of the earth!

C.) my friend texted me last night and said meet me at the school were auditioning for the play, so i did completely on a whim and today i found out I MADE IT! I'm Helen of troy, in Trojan Women, I'm so excited!

 D.) all my pants fit looser i have been working my butt of and its showing!

E.) i got to hang out with Vayla last night! and i freakin love her soo much too!

i love my life,

 and two really good friends who i thought had completely forgotten about me texted me ! just to chat and see how i was. My life... it couldn't get any better right now..

well unless i was a millionaire... but that's for the future [;

this is MY song right now I'm in love!

Dog Days Are Over 

[: listen PLEASE! you ll be in love too,

and who doesn't need a little love?.

Good day everyone [:

I'M SO HAPPY [:

Angels & Airplanes?

No.. shooting stars!  

3 kids, 11 pm. full of energy, nothing to do, so me, & my clever mind, suggested we lay down in the middle of the street ..

we did.. 

As we lay laughing and talking and laughing some more, we witnessed 8 yes eight, shooting stars.

it was incredible, i found my self wishing the same 4 things on every single one, does that mean they absolutely have to come true ?

i hope..

I guess it lays in the hands of god, after all he is the creator 

he will decide

if what i wish will become.

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"god really does send angels"

drove out to my cousins recently upon arriving, a little old neighbor came over frantic and asked if we had seen a little dog, we hadn't, so she rushed away, my cousin offered to help her look.

it was hot, i was tired, the last thing i wanted to do was look for a dog, but my conscience got the best of me.

So with that i jumped on the beach cruiser and set off down the road.

not thirty seconds into my bike ride i see a tiny chiuaua running across the road headed for the highway,

so i jump off the bike to grab the tiny dog, walk around the corner, dog in hand, saw the woman and said is this the dog ? she ran to me bawling and hugging me exclaiming  

"god really does send angels"

She told me how i just answered her prayer, and then she just stopped and started crying so i put my arm around her and hugged her. 

On a side note:  

The love that poured from stranger to stranger, made me feel so good, though it was just a tiny dog, I'm grateful for the inspiration i had to look for little Elliot and I'm glad i had the drive to follow it.

Welcome home Elliot! 

She told me i deserved an extra banana split tonight! woohoo.

just goes to show how the little promptings from the spirit, really mean something.

 have a wonderful sunday night [: