Your Life, Your Last day

Two books i just finished.

1.)  Before i fall

    - Sam dies,

 that day she was mean to her family,

 and a girl at school,

 after she dies she wakes up the next day,

relives that same day,

the same way though,

 she dies again and wakes up ... again,

 she does this for seven days, but by the third day she starts to realize whats important and changes the way that last day of her life happens, it makes me wonder,

 if today were my last day,

would i be happy with the way i lived it ?

2.)  Crank

             - Bree,

from a broken

 family goes to live

 with her dad and ends

up meeting a boy who does

meth, she tries it, gets hooked

and her life goes down hill from there,

it was written by her mother based on a true story,

 all about her struggles and journey on this drug,

she ends up pregnant in the end and the

sequel goes on to the next part of

her life, I'm stoked to read it,

 it was so real and raw,

  beautifully written

 all in poetry.

Today,

a good friend and neighbor took his own life, he had children and a loving wife, they    were always so happy, i don't understand.. i cant even imagine the call your father took his life, or imagine the heartbreak and grieving this family is going through, as i was telling my mom this today, she said you can imagine because you have been there, but i haven't, my dad fought for me and my family, he died a hero and yet i still get angry he left. i cant bear the anger and emotion i would be filled with if he intentionally left me.. my prayers go out to this family.

This

so strongly

ties into the book

"before i fall" is today

the day you would want to

 remember as your last, i know

today would definitely not be the one

 for me,    so as my dad taught I'm going to

 live each moment to the fullest of my ability,

don't wait to follow what your heart desires do it now..