Skinny Bitch

Make a list of goals and start chipping away at them.

THIS IS YOUR LIFE

live it to the fullest with reckless abandon,

Seize the day, and do it again tomorrow.

LIVE.

go get your dream job. search for your dream man.
Fear NOTHING. Try EVERYTHING.
Be Excited
DANCE.
You'll never get yesterday back, but today is yours for the taking.
Make it Great!

I just finished a book called "skinny Bitch" its changing me, and how i view things, how i feel and how i am now making decisions. if your looking for a good read, a nice change, and eye opener, or just another opinion, read it.

p.s youll be a vegan with me if you read it.

Reading Spree

Leave it to me to not post for ten days ! ugh.

I have been on a definite reading spree,

8 books, two months, with school on top of it and work, what can i say ? I'm a nerd.

this week i finished:
Fallout, the last trilogy to crank and glass. so good.. addiction is so harmful,
Hunger games! amazing couldn't put it down.
Anyone who hasn't read it.. read it !!

This school year i finished:
Eat Pray love (twice)
Before i fall
When the bough Breaks
How to ruin your life by forty
Crank

Glass

Fallout

Hunger Games

now I'm starting the sequel to hunger games, and the miracle of forgiveness.

"the more you read the more you know, the more you know The more places you'll go"

Guess ill be headed alot of places with a lot of knowledge by the end of this year,

my dream is that one day ill have my own library full of thousands of books that i have read.

ill post soon about Disney and the Wedding.

I'm so stoked to get married, i want my day where i am the princess[:

wonderful week to everyone.

Struck by Insight

Ive been on a reading spree lately,

 its my only way to ESCAPE st George.

this week i read "when the bough breaks" i started it last year and didn't finish,

so i started it over, as i was reading i realized that a year ago it didn't mean anything, but when i picked it up this time, i was reading about me..

it was basically my story, laid out in front of me, and it gave me so much insight.

~

Today was also conference, it was different this year though, because i chose to watch, i wasn't just doing it because my mom made me. 

 i loved it,

 Our prophet is truly incredible might i just say.

I loved the second session yesterday, elder Gong's talk, and the second session today, I cant remember all the elders names who spoke but the talk about "addiction", the talk to "parents of teenagers" and elder Bednars talk.

 I don't want to choose favorites but (he is my favorite [:).

 Today I was taught I can call on the savior whenever I need him,

 if I'm doing what he asks, he will do what I ask in return.

and the devil has no power over me.

 if i stand by Christ in all times, he will and always has stood by me, 

my testimony was strengthened today and everything just became so clear.

 truly and insightful day. 

I hope yours was too

Your Life, Your Last day

Two books i just finished.

1.)  Before i fall

    - Sam dies,

 that day she was mean to her family,

 and a girl at school,

 after she dies she wakes up the next day,

relives that same day,

the same way though,

 she dies again and wakes up ... again,

 she does this for seven days, but by the third day she starts to realize whats important and changes the way that last day of her life happens, it makes me wonder,

 if today were my last day,

would i be happy with the way i lived it ?

2.)  Crank

             - Bree,

from a broken

 family goes to live

 with her dad and ends

up meeting a boy who does

meth, she tries it, gets hooked

and her life goes down hill from there,

it was written by her mother based on a true story,

 all about her struggles and journey on this drug,

she ends up pregnant in the end and the

sequel goes on to the next part of

her life, I'm stoked to read it,

 it was so real and raw,

  beautifully written

 all in poetry.

Today,

a good friend and neighbor took his own life, he had children and a loving wife, they    were always so happy, i don't understand.. i cant even imagine the call your father took his life, or imagine the heartbreak and grieving this family is going through, as i was telling my mom this today, she said you can imagine because you have been there, but i haven't, my dad fought for me and my family, he died a hero and yet i still get angry he left. i cant bear the anger and emotion i would be filled with if he intentionally left me.. my prayers go out to this family.

This

so strongly

ties into the book

"before i fall" is today

the day you would want to

 remember as your last, i know

today would definitely not be the one

 for me,    so as my dad taught I'm going to

 live each moment to the fullest of my ability,

don't wait to follow what your heart desires do it now..

Truth ...

In a world of disorder, disaster and fraud. Sometimes only beauty can be trusted. only artistic excellence is INCORRUPTIBLE . Pleasure cannot be bargained down and sometimes the meal is the only currency that is real. To devote yourself to the creation and enjoyment of beauty. Then can be a serious business not always necessarily a means of escaping reality, but sometimes a means of holding onto the real when everything else is flaking away into rhetoric plot.

-Eat Pray Love-

To lose Balance sometimes for Love.. Is part of living a Balanced life.

August 13.. Eat Pray Love come out !Im so excited !

its also Friday the 13th

Freaked ? nah

Last saturday i went with drake to artctic circle to get ice cream. The girl at the window was all " its free Fry day [friday] how many do you want and so we were like uh two, i was thinking wow what an idiot its saturday but heck we get free fries cuz she thinks it friday, it took me till today when my sister was like she didnt say free fry friday she said free fry day.. Turns out im the idiot.

Worked out so much today i thought my head was going to fall off

and can i just state my love and obsession with

'SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE'

have a beautiful thursday.

Italy,India,Indonesia

I just finished Eat Pray Love, this book not only made me want to travel around the world on my own spiritual journey, eat new foods, and embark on an adventure with no idea where I'm going, but it also gave me the worst anxiety to travel, not bad anxiety though, just the kind that i want to travel and would do anything to get there, my mom keeps telling me i cannot do anything until I'm 18 but i dont want to wait that long, i made a list of every place i WILL go. my goal is to start volunteering next summer, 4 months in either Cambodia, Ghana, South Africa, Kenya, Tanzania, Nepal, or Vietnam, since i am not certified to do much I'm going to be helping in the orphanage. I'm so excited i can hardly breathe when i think about it!

i feel like a 6 year old when they are on the plane taking off to Disneyland, it seems like forever until you get to the happiest place on earth, but in time.. it will come and you will reach the place you have been dying to go... okay actually I'm still like this on the way to Disneyland so forget the 6 year old thing, but crappy metaphor or not I'm overly joyed too TRAVEL

I'm going to Italy, eating tons of incredible and delicious Italian food,

I'm going  find my own spiritual Guru,

& meditate till my butt is numb and tingling in an ashram in India

and find MY inner balance it doesn't have to be in Indonesia

but i do want to find a medicine man, or woman who can make my hair grow long with a root from a banana tree.

[India]

[Italy]

[Italy]

[Indonesia]

these pictures are obviously not mine, but someday, someday SOON there will be my very own pictures of these beautiful places, but until then...

 i just have to sit the puddles of my anxiety and wait.

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As for my week..

 i went to St George.

 bought some shoes I'm totally and completely in love with and some other stuff, saw my apartment i will dreadfully but excitedly be moving into,

 went and visited dads grave,

played with gabby [my dog].

 and then went on my very first believe it or not fishing trip,

 with my mom and her boyfriend and my sisters and my probably very soon to be step sister.

........

so it wasn't my very first fishing trip..

but the last time i was taken to play this wonderful sport it went as follows,

................

 i spent the weekend in my underwear because my friend there wet her pants, and was too embarrassed to be the only one in her underwear. 

the stuff i did to make people feel better, actually I'm sure i objected to this, but i was utterly forced into this by my all loving father.

so basically heres how this fishing trip played out.

woke up early

went fishing

caught a fish

read Eat Pray Love

sister caught like 12 fish,

i cursed her with my eyes,

then kept reading

went back to camp

ate

read more,

played card games

WON EGYPTIAN RAT SCREW

read some more

went to bed

woke up to fish yet again

caught a fish,

forgot i was fishing

because i was reading

which then caught me by surprise when my fishing pole flew from me

i panicked but it was a sheer excitement panic

lost the fish

glared at all 3 of my sisters again because they menacingly caught a few more fish.

then the other sister caught a pregnant fish who's babies or eggs were spilling everywhere.

                                                         [ew]                               

went back to camp fish less

i was fished out for the week

stuffed my face with kix along with the sister

spent a couple more days fishing [no luck]

hung out at camp, ate some more, read some more, slept some more

came home

finished my book

almost started crying because it was soo good !

 and now I'm off to Borders because i need another book. if i cant travel and I'm cooped up here in tiny eagle mountain i can at least get somewhere in the pages of a good book....

 until i set it down and realize I'm not in Africa or on a beautiful remote island in the Caribbean I'm still here.. in my drab room but oh well its the best i can do.

hope your weeks were as event full as mine [: