Thailand Vlog!

OK really I'm starting this off with my apologies, i know I'm so annoying to listen to

 if

you even do listen to it, you probably will want to die.

But... here is my video post for the days i have already written about 1 & 2, here , and here, but its so much more fun to here me blab on and on about it than to  read it right ?

If you actually watched that, well done!

if you got nothing from it because i talk ridiculously fast,

then i hope you at least laughed at my idiocy,

i just loved my trip and i want to talk about it,

 i gave a rotary presentation to the entire rotary club on Monday all by myself [gasp],

and i was so nervous but i made everyone cry and of course i cried because it was just such and amazing opportunity, and I'm so grateful really.

so i would say it was a success!

 have the most splendid rest of the week!

We are More than We are, We are One.

As you go through life you ll see, there is so much that we.. don't understand..
And the only thing we know, is things don't always go.. the way we planned..
But you'll see everyday that well never turn away, when it seems all your dreams come undone. we will stand by your side, filled with hope and filled with pride,
We are more than we are, we are one.
If there's so much i must be, can i still just be me.. the way i am..
Can i trust in my own heart, or am i just one part.. of some big plan.
Even those who are gone, are with us as we go on, your journey has only begun..
Tears of pain, tears of joy, one thing nothing can destroy,
is our pride deep inside, we are one,
family, family, we are one. family, family, we are one.
We are one you and i, we are like the earth and the sky, one family under the sun..
All the wisdom to lead of the courage that you need, you will find when you see, we are one...

just one of those days. the down kind of days, i miss my dad.

 a revelation my mom had,

The lion king.

 i watched it over and over and over again from age 2 until age 6, my pet simba that my dad got me i took everywhere, and just now im piecing together that its MY story. i bawled when mufasa died at age four,

 and i bawled today as i watched it and thought of my own dad.

 "But dont worry daddy, Hakuna Matata is up soon".

Me and My Simba, Me.

He lives in you, in your relfection

he lives in me, in my relfection

Simba, you have forgotten who you are,

 and so forgotten me.

Taylor, you have forgotten who you are,

 and so forgotten me.

Look inside your self, you are more than what you have become.

you must take your place in the circle of life.

Remember who you are

Simba,                                                                                                                                                        Taylor,

you are my child,

and the one true king.

and the one true you,

 daughter of heavenly father.

daughter of my father.

remember who you are,

remember.

Its gotta be a good life...

Do a little something to make you feel happy

...

(this week i haven't been feeling... lets just say my typical optimistic self.)

knowing this i still did nothing to change my views, then i came across This post on This wonderful blog, and realized, life is good, nothings horrible, actually a lot of good things are happening so why be sour? why be down? just enjoy this time i have been given.

so... here's the small necessities that are making my life a good life:

Good books

cute boys

Laughing so hard i cant breathe

Grandparents

Parents

The Lion King

Compliments from strangers

Elephants

The colour Sea Foam Green

Music

The Carpenters

Prayers

&

words of Encouragement

What are the small

worth while necessities

 in your life?

9/11/2001 in the eyes of a 9 year old.

[ i just skimmed through my journal and found this entry back from when i was 9]
~

My mom cried, she served her LDS mission in New York and New Jersey and it was and still is a special place in her heart, at that age i didnt understand how many people died, how many people risked their lives, the children who lost parents and families who lost loved ones.

 True heroes were born, and im so grateful to those who continue to risk their lives to protect me and my country, im proud to be and American.

~

God Bless those in need today.

Thailand. oh the stories.

Saturday June 18, 2011
so my phones an hour fast and were supposed to get up at 6:30 so for some reason i set my alarm for 5:30 thinking it was an hour back so me and Maddie are now up at 4:30, I'm really confused. so we just talked for 2 hours.

-it seriously rains SO much here, it ll be completely dry then all the sudden its torrential down pour for like 2-10 minutes then its dry again. for breakfast more shrimp porridge and then today my van went to the school YL went to last year, Wat Bang Si ad. to do construction. The grounds were SO pretty !

this temple was right in front on the school grounds.

Down to the little fish pond we went to build brick walls around it since the fish were stolen and that's the agriculture they live on. digging in mud clay seriously so hard! my sweat was pouring off my face like i was in the shower. hammering huge walls down with mallets, is a great way to take out your anger! the rain comes ! were so grateful and instead of taking a "rain break" we stood in the rain and danced in the rain and said prayers of gratitude for the rain. once we were soaked to the bone, it did actually get a bit chilly so we stood under a building and all these little kids were there so we watched them play a game and then me and Nat had them teach us how to play!

we hauled 1000 pound pillars,and mixed cement.
ate some lunch, actually the BEST meal i had in Thailand. it wasn't risky or unsanitary and it tasted AMAZING, why because we topped it off with MANGO STICKY RICE!!!!!!

back to work, covered in mud, in our teeth in our hair all over our bodies because when you smash something covered in mud it comes flying right? so i ask J'pan, "what is it were smashing down anyways?" J'pans reply " a toilet" my reply " oh joy so this mud that's in my teeth is actually poop.. Wonderful"

smashing and sloshing in poop/mud.

later i find a bug a cool bug a caterpillar type bug and i say hey look at this cool bug to J'pan, he follows my statement with "ya that bug actually turns into a bat" my reply " really that's sooo cool!! hey everyone look at this caterpillar it turns into a bat!!! i didn't know bats grew like butterflies"
his reply "jk its just a bug"
everyone Else's reply " hahahahah TAYLOR thought bats hatched from caterpillars!!!"
the rest of the day i had random people coming up to me saying " hey Taylor i found this cool bug that turns into a bat"
NATALIE!!!!! told everyone.

See the brown stuff on her neck ? its poop.

after our hard work we played soccer, fell in mud puddles, played tag and red rover with some slippery speedy little Thai kids, and J'pan continued to tease me by rubbing leaves and sticks on my legs so i would freak out thinking they were bugs!!!

found this photo on FB "jpan playing tricks on taylor"

so true that stink!!!

-Last highlight adventure of today: after dinner we went into the basement where we find a gecko literally the length of my elbow to my finger tips !!!! so everyone gathers around given there were at least 40 of us and I'm at the very front, with Vay, she says:
 " someone put their hand up by it to give it dimension"
so me willingly stood a good five feet from it and held my hand in the air, then my most wonderful sister says no get closer and gives me a good shove. at the same time, someone snaps a picture so a flash goes off ....were all blind and the the dang hulk like gecko leaps off the wall!!
of course what do i do ? get the heck out of there is what i do,  because I'm the closest one to it, and its a flying monster  lizard coming at me, so in the midst of 40 million blood curdling screams me and vayla end up on top of each other on the other side of the room. oh and my heart was beating fast as a machine gun!!

i hope i get to see Nune tomorrow i missed her today.

it was such a good day,

I'm so grateful I'm here,

even though i was covered in feces and mud all day

Good night !

I LOVE THAILAND

Birthday[:

Today is my Birthday [:

and it was amazing. actually techinicallys it was last saturday but i wrote this on it so it counts . friday we had burffday breffast, at 7 , class, fun, burffday dinner, friends, foam dance ! awesome! family came all the way to st george, shopping, more breffast on saturday (my real burffday) cute shirts! awesome books, most amazing family time, gramma, sister and mom, temple time, smoothies and THAI FOOD , with mango sticky rice! family leaves, (SAD DAY) lots of face book love, and cake + birthday wishes[: good day [: great day !

this little squirt has grown up so much !!

 my little sister jordans birthday was on the 6th of august

 she got shirt i liked and i borrowed it a couple times, she knew how much i loved it so she gave it to me for my birthday .. she is serioulsy the cutest! 

 love you J!

Have a marvelous week everyone [:

Dont forget to smile!