First Crash..

close calls.

now a thing of the past.

going through the intersection.. realizing.

this is really happening. brakes. swerve. trying to avoid the impossible. smash.

its done.

the shrill crunch of both cars as they crush one another.

my face, numb, was that a board that just nailed me in the face?

no it was the air bag.

no air, cant breathe, cant move.

is this really happening?

 dazed, and slow motion.

opening my eyes coming to.

my car is spun all the way around..

Kim is awake. shes talking to me, "Taylor, Taylor! are you OK ?" shaking me. that's when i realize,

 "oh my gosh, Kim your leg! oh my gosh Kim are you OK?"

 Kim. "we gotta get out i cant breathe"

shaking so bad its impossible to undo the seat belt.

 smoke, dust, chemicals billowing from the car, from the air bags.

 run to Kim's side.

 Kim's eye, my nose, Kim's leg, my arm.

Kim just had surgery on her knee and is in a full leg cast.

I feel like the worst friend ever, a car accident.

"it wasn't yout fault taylor "

police officer

 "she failed to yield on a yellow light, its not your fault its hers"

 oh yeah there is another person involved. is she OK?

 about eighty years old.

she turned in front of me. bloody nose. going to the hospital just in case.

so shaky, cant think straight.

bawling.

oh gosh. my car. gone. sorry muchacho you were a good friend of mine.

sorry sister. seeing as your 16th birthday is tomorrow and you were going to get muchacho.

surreal. so surreal.

It could have been so much worse

i seriously am so lucky i returned home safely just as we prayed to.

injuries.. sore body all of it, teeth and jaw sore, scraped bruised arm, major headache, tweaked hurt knee, leg, and back, neck is seriously hurt. and cut up lips.

as far as injuries emotionally.

 i feel sick, i cant eat, i cant stop crying,
it was an accident everyone says.

 "legally it wasn't your fault." 
 either way its called an accident. 

I need Suzie, why ? she is my best friend, more than that. she is family. she is my soft spot to land.

Kim is one of those friends that you cant describe to anyone because their so amazing.

I believe people come into our lives for a reason and she is my best friend right now.. and I'm officially the worst friend for us being in and accident. she isn't mad..

I don't know why she would be.

i ruined her day. That's why

 i feel like i need to be forgiven of something.

 i don't even know how i feel.

my emotions are all twisted up.

 Kim is so incredible lets just leave it at that.

On the list for the next few months. weekly chiropractor appointments, hospital visits, new car. more blog posts. since this will be my "therapeutic place".