A Packaged Deal..

A packaged deal me and Maddie.I have been missing my sister a ton.

though we fight, quite often, she is also my strong shoulder to hold me up and support me no matter what. She is the one person that knows exactly how to make me cry,and she does it well.

but also is the one person who can read me the best and truly knows how to make me feel better.

she always makes me laugh so hard i almost pee my pants (but she is the one who usually does the peeing) .
She is my best friend.

school has put us at a distance and its making me miss my Maddie.

I miss the summer days when we played with chalk all day, and would swing to our little hearts content.

my dance team buddy. we have always been on the same team from day one. the sweat the nerves and all the tears.

 

ifly 

embarrassing her at school. as always

i convinced her to stuff kicks in our  mouth and then play the ugly game. 

 

    

the ugly game in fact is her favorite game... because it seems were always playing it...

on our cruise.. even in the airport..

don't even ask what were doing here because i don't really know.

I'm so 'cited' for our cruise again. last years was the best.

i love that she pretends to put on deodorant,

 just so we will take a picture of her 'doing something' 

and we ate snails... ew 

love you sis.

camping then..

and camping now..

we always managed to find some sort of trouble.

something about us just always screamed guilty.. 

maybe its because we always were!

So glad you got better. I don't know what I would have done without you. 

and then along came Jordi. 

 boy was she in for some trouble. with the two of us leading her into life

Somehow we all managed to turn out OK [:

i love my sisters so much. and i don't know what my life would be life without them. I'm so excited to be done with school in 2 weeks and then we leave on our cruise in 3 ya [:

Army of Heaven.

(the Salt Lake Temple is the most special to me, its where me and my family were sealed together for eternity)

This general conference with still one more session to go and i feel so overwhelmed with the spirit, what profound messages were spoken today, and with a knowledge of this church.
The prophets message today touched my heart, and when he smiled, it was the warmest smile, i have ever seen and made me want to laugh and cry, tears of happiness, his smile was comforting and genuine, and i know for a fact this man is called of god.

I have such a special love of our temples, not only are they a beacon of our testimonies, but i want to visit every single one, with a new temple now going up in Rome Italy,
but what enormously touched me this afternoon was the closing song, my whole body was consumed with goosebumps and i teared up, listening to the incredible words of this song,
My journal entry states:

WE are the army of heaven. our church is growing at such an incredible rate, all of the saints, in that building, I'm one of the saints, we will make it. watching them sing, the armies of heaven their gathered in that conference room and we are here all over the world. my brothers and sisters, were going to make it. we have to. its so important and those on the other side are waiting for us! This IS the true gospel, i can feel it and i know it with all my heart, the holy ghost is here with me, i know this is the truth, the true church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

I have a testimony of this church.

i hope everyone has a beautiful Sunday

Spring:

I'm extremely happy, the sun beats down on my face,

on my whole body, it feels incredible.

upset.. a little, the last place i want to be is class, 

I'm too warm to be cooped inside.

i want to be out laying in the sun,

i want to run and have nothing holding me back,

no huge fat tests to study for,

i need to be floating on a big ship in the ocean,

 not writing a 10 page paper.

no finals to start thinking about,

thin, my patience is growing for school.

stop eating. and look outside the window,

at the beauty and light that awaits out side 

OK. 

~

breathe in the sweet smells of springtime, 

I never thought i would  get to summer.

why did you take so long to come,

you let me be weak enough to let it finally come

take over me again,

let the sunshine fill me with power,

with energy. take over every ounce of my being,

I'm tangled, very tangled in conflicting thoughts,

the spring brings about so many emotions,

excitement for what is to come,

and the gift of patience, till it arrives.

let it be, let it be. its going to happen.

give it time.

embrace it and be happy.



Spring Break.

so this term usually means something fun and exciting.

 well to most college students,

but i opted for the path of least partysistence..

OK so i went home.. too the cold.. why ? don't ask. because i seriously have no answer.

and then i-

spent sometime with Meranda and baby tae, (named after me) (:

went to basketball,(long story follows this)

went to Tepanyaki (DELISH)

saw 'The Adjustment Bureau' (favorite movie of all time.) i highly recommend,

became more amazed by Karen Carpenter.. i watch a video of her every day..

critiqued a dance team, (i seriously miss dancing)

Had an amazing fun sleep over with Nat who i love![:

then spent 2 whole ENTIRE days at dance competition, the only difference was this year all i did was watch since I'm not on the comp teams anymore,

and visited my favorite family in the whole world! the Bassett family and got the most exciting news ever ! they are having another baby!!

 i am in love with babies! well all kids really, unless their evil, then I'm not a huge fan.

Ok well, the end.

Only 6 weeks left of school !

Karen Carpenter

Karen Carpenter,

is my idol, she is so beautiful ,

and incredible, i look up to her so much, and i cant believe she is gone.

i watched the Karen Carpenter Story and i cried, this world lost something so beautiful and truly amazing,

In voice I'm singing, "(they long to be) Close To You" its so beautiful, it makes me feel so much closer to her and i want to meet her, in the next life of course [:

who are your idols?

have a wonderful weekend!!

oh and i have  a date tonight...

yay! with my home teacher?

 is that weird. nah he is cute [: hahah

Viva ... Las Vegas

Vegas, walked the strip,laughed really hard, had sore feet, exnae on heals next time, got hit on by nasties, gave someone a fake number and ran away, and decided I'm so very grateful that i live in a place i feel safe! driving off the strip into down town Las Vegas we were a bit fearful that every one in a black hood is either

 A) a gangster

B) a thug or

C) a gang banger,

but all in all it was a very eventful... fun trip!

breanna, meranda, me

MGM

Mr Bam Bam

i think Michael Jackson is still alive and just staged his death...

Oh my gosh ! HOLLY MADISON if me and meranda could have seen her, it would have made our lives complete.

some day that will be the REAL deal Eiffel tower !

and i was in love with this chandelier, i wanted to rip it out of the ceiling and take it home with me while me and Jared slept in the front of hollister for hours waiting, and waiting,,, and waiting!!

Caesars palace? or the Belagio, cant remember we were lost in a maze of casinos, but the ceiling was way cool, and I'm in love with Celine Deon.

yay Vegas, next time no boy friends and girlfriends coming who fight the whole time and ruin our plans , good thing me and Meranda had each other!

wake up:

This morning i wake up to: quiet, everything is quiet,

 the cars speeding back and forth on the freeway,

but its not noise, its soothing.

it lets me know even though I'm all alone,

right now.

there are still people, beautiful people out there.

while I'm in here.

I wake up to shadows, not sunshine. like i usually do. 

its early but not too early,

as i peer out my window its raining,

 i instantly have an overwhelming feeling of peace and comfort,

i expand my lungs and fill them with thousands of molecules of pure damp air,

it gently flows rain and oxygen,  through my window,

i feel alive again when i breathe, relax, body, just breathe.

its so beautiful and cleansing, when my life starts to drag, it just needs to rain, and its completely renewed. why is it the rain makes me feel this way,

 I'm not completely sure, but it does,

and today will be

an incredible day!

[out my window]

Quote for today~

"When I die, I want to go peacefully like my Grandfather did, in his sleep -- not screaming, like the passengers in his car."

hahah

loving This song [: Forget you..

listen it'll make you happy !

and everyone

needs to be happy

and LAUGH

Euphoria!

ME, having  best week ever ! i feel euphoric and happy i just never stop smiling, and believe it or not i had a complete emotional break down on Tuesday ! seehow fast time turns? anyways.

My reasoning is A.) I'm just happy !

B.) i got to hang out with Nat Friday night and freakin love her so much, biggest sweet heart on the face of the earth!

C.) my friend texted me last night and said meet me at the school were auditioning for the play, so i did completely on a whim and today i found out I MADE IT! I'm Helen of troy, in Trojan Women, I'm so excited!

 D.) all my pants fit looser i have been working my butt of and its showing!

E.) i got to hang out with Vayla last night! and i freakin love her soo much too!

i love my life,

 and two really good friends who i thought had completely forgotten about me texted me ! just to chat and see how i was. My life... it couldn't get any better right now..

well unless i was a millionaire... but that's for the future [;

this is MY song right now I'm in love!

Dog Days Are Over 

[: listen PLEASE! you ll be in love too,

and who doesn't need a little love?.

Good day everyone [:

I'M SO HAPPY [:

Quote for today~

Spread love everywhere you go;
first of all in your home ... let no one ever come to you with out leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of Gods kindness. Kindness in your face, Kindness in your eyes, Kindness in your smile,
Kindness in your warm greeting.

-Mother Theresa

take a chance? switch apartments.

New years resolutions!

we all make them, in hopes of changing something for the better to make it a great new year.

2011

by about this time though most people,

(I being one of them)

have forgotten all about their resolution,

but with that in mind, I'm am still trying to make a notion to

keep my resolution going strong!

Taylor's resolutions 2011

-accept my self, but improve my self.

-take chances

-strive towards my biggest dream.

With these in mind, i have been struggling to deal with my roommates. I love them, most of the time, but i just cant deal with all the negative words, and someone is always putting someone else down.

and that someone is usually me, I'm not sure why but i just decided enough, I'm not angry i just need a change, 

I'm trying to love  and accept my self,

and its hard when someone else is always pushing you down.

so I'm moving out!

I'm "taking chances" ,

switching up people,

 leaving my comfort zone,

and making new friends,

 along with, wait for it... sharing a bedroom!

 ahh it will be a good learning experience though! so I'm am moving out on Friday

wish me luck!

Thailand.

I'M SO EXCITED!

Thailand is quickly approaching! still months away and yet it feels like its right here!!

I have walked around campus this entire week with the biggest Grin on my face. my excitement is to much to contain and it shows!

i got my itinerary for all of our activities and traveling! holy sheesh! I'm so excited!

did i already say that ??

I'M SO EXCITED, I'M SO EXCITED,

NEENER..NEENER..NEENER,

 I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED!!!

SALT LAKE CITY, to SAN FRANCISCO, CA
Departing At  05:18pm Tues, Jun 14
Arriving At  06:19pm Tues, Jun 14



SAN FRANCISCO, CA to SEOUL INCHEON INT, KOREA REPUBLIC
Departing At  01:10pm Wed, Jun 15
Arriving At 05:25pm Thu, Jun 16



SEOUL INCHEON INT, KOREA REPUBLIC to PHUKET, THAILAND
Departing At  08:20pm Thu, Jun 16
Arriving At  01:00am Fri, Jun 17

PHUKET THAILAND!

Friday June 17-- go to Phang Nga Resort

Sat, Jun 18-- opening ceremony at Wat Bang Sai / Tham Thong Lang

Sun, June 19-23-- begin construction, teaching, vocational training and history,

Fri, Jun 24--Health fair for school children and parents

Sat, Jun 25-- Carnival and complete construction

Sun, Jun 26-- Closing Ceremonies

Mon, Jun 27--Elephant riding / bamboo river rafting

Tues Jun 28--Phang Nga Boat tour

End Service Trip

everyone goes home except a few of us!

Time to play !

Wednesday were leaving Phuket to fly to Bangkok.

once we get to Bangkok we may rent a beach house and play on the beach, and well go to a friends house who lives in Bangkok.

she'll show us the real way of life in Thailand.

can you say awesome?

yes i can ! AwEsOmE!

then the sad day comes when its time to go home...

BANGKOK SUVARNABH, THAILAND to SEOUL INCHEON INT, KOREA REPUBLIC
Departing At--11:35pm Fri, Jul 8
Arriving At--06:50am Sat, Jul 9
SEOUL INCHEON INT, KOREA REPUBLIC to SAN FRANCISCO, CA
Departing At--04:30pm
Arriving At--11:15am

SAN FRANCISCO, CA to SALT LAKE CITY, UT
Departing At--01:00pm
Arriving At--03:53pm

Either way I'm so excited to go,

as you could probably tell!

have a wonderful weekend!

Smile, it will change someones day.

Quote for today~

Ill always come back to this one,

 its one of my all time favorites.

 it was said today in my church meeting and i love the way it makes me feel,

so I'm hoping it makes you feel the same.

~ God does not look on the outward appearance. I believe he doesn't care one bit if we live in a castle or a cottage, if we are handsome or homely, if we are famous or forgotten, Though we are incomplete God loves us Completely.. Though we are imperfect, God loves us Perfectly, Though we may feel lost and without compass, Gods love Encompasses us Completely.~

-Dieter F. Uchtdorf-

 hope everyone has a truly wonderful holiday!

Skinny Bitch

Make a list of goals and start chipping away at them.

THIS IS YOUR LIFE

live it to the fullest with reckless abandon,

Seize the day, and do it again tomorrow.

LIVE.

go get your dream job. search for your dream man.
Fear NOTHING. Try EVERYTHING.
Be Excited
DANCE.
You'll never get yesterday back, but today is yours for the taking.
Make it Great!

I just finished a book called "skinny Bitch" its changing me, and how i view things, how i feel and how i am now making decisions. if your looking for a good read, a nice change, and eye opener, or just another opinion, read it.

p.s youll be a vegan with me if you read it.

Overwhelmed!

I have been seriously lacking blogging in my life, and it kind of upsets me since this probably one of the only non frustrating things in my life, it brings me a little solitude. especially when I'm so overwhelmed..

Anyways, here's how the last week has been;

-chiro appointment
-dentist appointment, (way to to much numbing in my shot, makes my whole face up to my eyebrow numb, date tonight, cant talk normal, i cant even smile, shoot me.)
-chiro again
-Youthlinc party
-one and half freaking hours laying in a claustrophobic MRI tube. (numb butt, half asleep)
-no new car yet, (that means being stranded at school again).
-Chiro again
-moving back home= depressed
-starting school = depressed & pissed and anxious and excited.. (is it possible for all those to go together??)
-procrastinate homework
-way to much homework,
-new room mate, = self conscious about using my own bathroom.(do you really think people stand out side the door and listen to us .. go.. ' if you know what i mean ' the way we think they do..?)
-new classes = new schedule = new people + new buildings = anxiety.
      -aerobics
      -yoga
      -acting 2
      -english 1010
      -nutrition 1020
      -voice
      -psychology 3700
      -and lets not forget institute
-no job = no money
-planning my future, if this isn't stressful enough, i don't want to grow up.
-will i succeed will i fail?
-all this stress = new zits, pimples,(is there a word for those abnoxious red things that doesnt sound disgusting??) acne...

So what do i do to relieve  my stress??

 re-arrange my room of course!

oh ya that sounds so logical and i bet it solves a lot of problems right?

no..

 I normally would go work out to blow off a little steam, but in case we forgot! i have no car which means no gym.. which means.. I'm going to get fat, sitting here for a week.. procrastinating homework, dreading life.

 But... aside from my whining

today all the room mates woke up.

every one sounded just like i do now.

irritated

and someone wrote all over the fridge school sucks..

and everyone agreed.

 but i hate being home because well everyone is miserable.

and its only our second day back..

so i decided to go back to my roots and remember,

 "what you think about you bring about" 

 "the gratitude you put out will always come back to you "

&

 "the more positive you are, the higher frequency you vibrate at which will attract other high frequency vibrations to you" so i said...

" enough with everyone saying schools sucks... because it will if you keep saying it!"

then i decided, my life is under control, and remembered this awesome quote from Gordon B Hinkley.

" Things will work out, keep trying, be believing, be happy, don't get discouraged, things will work out."

i love it. and its TRUE!

so be rid of you negative Nellie's and welcome in... positive Patties...?

if you have a better name let me know because that one is really... well i don't have to say it..

Holidays

yes I'm a few days behind,

but who has time to blog on their vaca? OK i do, ha "guilty"

but i truly had a wonderful Christmas i got so many awesome gifts and got to spend it with all my family including my beautiful grandma and my cousins! it was so much fun !

i love the snow and we seriously got so much we were like snowed in! except driving in ti is no bueno..

 the lights are probably my favorite things about the holidays. and the spirit it all brings.

some of my very favorite things i got were..

-3 sheet music books!! yay ! guitar, piano, and Vocal I'm so stoked i can play and sing! i got 2 glee books and the mama Mia book!

-my itouch ! i have wanted one of these forever I'm finally apart of the 21st century[: and its so much fun, i discover something new on it every day.

-I also got new boots , what can i say? I'm a boot lover.

-2 super cute coats but not the big ones, the perfect lite st George weather coats,

-Eat pray love the movie!! and my best friends wedding, I'm in love with Julia Roberts... seriously.

and tons more,

 i was just happy this season.

 hopefully i can find a new car soon and

 Happy 2011!

great things are in store for this year, I'm so excited, i can feel the greatness on the way.

my goal : to be optimistic about EVERYTHING that happens.

to travel, and to love me, for me, and chase my dreams.

happy holidays everyone!!